It’s here again. Christmas. My favorite season.
This year I have so many things to be grateful for. I have been through hell and back and now I can see the light, in so many ways.
It is so liberating to feel free and in charge of my own destiny now. I have the time and finances now to fix myself, physically and mentally. The scars, both figuratively and literally, will always be there, and they were hard-won. My emotions have finally settled, just in time for my fav season.
It’s the little things that make me happy now. I don’t need big shiny expensive things. I have lived frugally so well for the past few years, I find that SAVING money gives me more pleasure than spending money. Money is the root of so many problems anyway. I am more happy being frugal. My biggest enjoyment in life is the afternoon matinée movie for six bucks. I find joy in fixing up my house the most economical route, and feeling a sense of accomplishment.
Today I received notice today that I have been accepted in the Illinois Pre-existing Insurance Plan. For that I thank President Obama. All you haters out there, be grateful that you do not have a chronic, incurable disease like I do, because you too would be uninsurable. Thanks to Obama, I now have affordable insurance coverage. I haven’t been to my Crohn’s doctor is over 3 years now, and I REALLY NEED TO GO. Now I can. And I can get all my female tests I haven’t had in 3 years either. When I went to the mailbox today, I ripped the envelope open, and started screaming in my street. (Hope I didn’t scare the neighbors too much, but I think they are used to me, ha!). This is HUGE for me. Please Republicans, do not take away the health care I need. It’s NOT free, far from it. It is 125% more than a normal person’s premiums and I have a $5,000 deductible to pay before anything is covered. But it is something, and I want it, and I need it. So thank you to the powers that be, here on Earth and in Heaven.
More and more things are falling into place. Every Sunday when I go to church, I like to sit back and thank God for all the blessings that have come my way, and pray for good things to come to other people. I treasure my holy water I have received from dear friends who have traveled to Lourdes, and use it when I feel the need. I used it when I went to court, and God stood up for me, and I will use it for my back surgery. I used it on my BIL for his heart surgery, and he pulled through like a champ. Miracles do indeed happen.
As Christmas approaches, I feel the spirit everywhere. I love the cold, crisp air, and the beautiful twinkling lights everywhere. I love all the parties and get togethers with family and friends. I love seeing the delight on children’s faces when they open their gifts. I love making my great niece’s FIRST hot chocolate.
Christmas gives me feelings of hope and peace deep within my soul. I hope you all can feel it too, and have a very blessed holiday season. Don’t forget to keep the “Christ” in Christmas!