Thank you Sir may I have another!

bend over

Seriously, I feel like I have to bend over and take whatever the government is dishing out!

I have been on the State of Illinois Pre-existing Condition Plan insurance.  It wasn’t cheap, it was a $5,000 deductible before they paid a dime, plus $350/month premium.  I joined last November, so to date I have paid $7,800 for insurance out of my pocket so far.  And I was happy to do so, as my hip replacement plus complications have run up the bill way past that.

HOWEVER.  The states have run out of money, and now are transferring everyone over to the Federal Program.  In the MIDDLE OF THE CALENDAR YEAR.  There is NO credit for any money you have paid to the state so far this year.  So basically, you start from scratch again, and may end up paying double, like me.  Lucky me.  The premiums for the federal insurance are $567/month, and the out-of-pocket is $3,125.  So for the rest of this year it will cost me and ADDITIONAL $6,527.  This year, I will have to spend $14,327 for insurance.

I’m sorry, that is so not fair.  They should have done this transition at the beginning of the calendar year, so people don’t get screwed into having to pay double.  People in this program obviously have medical problems, and this is just another burden to add to their woes.

I don’t mean to sound ungrateful.  I am trying to be a good citizen, and PAY for my medical care, and not just expect the government to take care of me for free.

I really needed this kick in the teeth this month.  So thank you.  Thank you very much.


The incredible edible leg

turkeylegYep. That leg. That same leg that keeps causing me trouble.  I’m not sure whether to laugh or cry at this point.  I do have some graphic pics posted so if you don’t like blood, turn away my friend.

I had another surgery on Thursday to clean things out again.  Thought it was doing well, Not draining much, not like the last time.  Well, that was soon to change.

I had a massive bleed yesterday afternoon unexpectedly, scared the shit out of me.  My leg felt like a feast for coven of vampires.

I had been driving to the movie theatre.  My first excursion in a month!  When I got there, I got out of the car, and stood there stupidly looking at a puddle of blood on my seat.  Then I felt the drips down my leg.  I opened my pants right there in the parking lot and looked inside, and oh my…….this is what I saw:


I didn’t know what to do.  My first thought was that maybe it wasn’t so bad and I could go inside and put some paper towels on it and go see the movie.  Then I felt my side, and oh my……this is what I saw:


So now that option was gone.  I started to feel light-headed at that point, so much blood.  Should I call 911, standing here in a parking lot?  Where are the damn ER’s in Lake County?  Lake Forest Hospital was at least 45 minutes away.  Then I remembered the Vista ER in Lindenhurst by my doctor’s office.  So I got back in the car and started driving.

I called my sister.  My poor sister.  Bout gave her a heart attack, again.  She was at the Wal-Mart and said she would meet me there.  Then she called back again, wanting me to pull over in case I passed out or something.  But I am stubborn and just kept driving, I figured I could get to the ER faster than an ambulance would get to me.

So I get there and go limping in the door with my cane.  As I walked up to the counter a bunch of bloody napkins I had stuffed in my pants fell on the floor.  The receptionists called for help right away and I was taken to a room immediately.  So remember that trick next time you go to the ER, cuts down on waiting time, lol.

The nurse helped me out of my bloody clothes and into a gown.  I was more concerned with getting the white sheets all bloody than my own leg I think.  At that point my sister and Bri arrived, and Bri stood right by my side the whole time, checking on the blood.  She loves blood and guts.  We are hoping she will be a doctor when she grows up!  At 4 she is very good already!  She was upset she didn’t have her Doc McStuffins kit with her, lol.

Doc came in, took all the bandaging off, cleaned it up, put pressure on it until it stopped bleeding, rebandaged me up, and sent me on my way.  He said it was from all the build up of fluid from the surgery etc, it just decided to all come out at once.  Who knows.  It bled for awhile longer, then slowed.

So, at that point, I was hungry.  My sister, niece, Bri and I went next door to a restaurant and had some lunch, and then I drove myself home.

I did lay down and be still etc. etc.  But then the Hawks were playing last night, so I decided to go to the local pub and watch them.  I did fine, no excessive bleeding, although I was prepared this time with extra clothes and bandages in the car.

This morning things were still doing ok.  So I went to that damn movie.  Man of Steel.  I am Woman of Steel.


Read me, read me not

Ok, a challenge to my readers, old and new.  Read a few of my blogs, or a lot of my blogs, whatever you like.  Then tell me which one you like best, and why.  Then tell me which one you like least, and why.

The only thing I ask of you is to comment here after reading the blog post.  It’s not hard, there is a comment area, I think you just have to use your email address.

It is a lonely life for a blogger sometimes if they don’t have feedback to know whether or not their blog posts have an audience.

I know which ones of my blog posts are my favorites, and which ones are just silly little posts that are meaningless.  Let see if we match up!

Just curious to know what my readers think.  So I thank you in advance for taking a few minutes out of your day to humor me with this challenge.

The true meaning of friendship


happy people

I think my regular readers know that I have been going through a medical situation.  I had my right hip replaced on May 14th, and then it got infected and I was back in the hospital with more surgery etc. on May 31st.

It hasn’t been an easy ride.  At all.  Pretty bumpy as a matter of fact.  Irregular heart rate during surgery, skyrocketing blood sugar, vomiting for days, blood transfusion, blown out IV veins, NO veins, etc.  And that was just the first few days.  Now I am dealing with a bad infection that could jeopardize the future of my hip.  I had another surgery, another 4 day stay in hospital, PICC line (thank God), at home nursing care now and daily infusions.  Actually, today I did my own infusion, because insurance doesn’t pay for daily nurses.

When I came home from rehab back in May I thought I was over the worst and could walk pretty good and pain was minimal. I was ecstatic.  Now, I feel like I have regressed and am way, way back.  I have pretty significant pain, can’t walk without my walker, and am homebound. 😦  I still don’t know what my future holds for me and have to live day-to-day.

BUT.  There’s always a but.  In this case, a good but.  This whole situation has made me realize who my real friends are, and I have been become much closer to my family, especially my sister.  People have prayed, sent cards, visited, sent flowers, presents, and most of all have supported me in this ordeal.  I can actually FEEL the outpouring of love and prayers floating up to heaven.

When I was in the hospital this past weekend, I went to the Chapel on Saturday night during my nightly walk.  The hospital was pretty much empty.  Who wants to stay in a hospital on the weekend, besides this girl?  Anyway, the chapel was very peaceful and had a login book you could write requests/prayers to God in.  So I sat down and wrote 2 journal pages of thoughts to God.  I asked him for healing help and also thanked him for the new hip he gave me, and could I please keep it?  I told him I would take very care of it.  I ended my journaling with a plea for a Blackhawks win, and he gave me both Sat and Sun win, so I know he is listening to me.  The next day, Sunday, the Chaplain came to visit me in my room and said how much he enjoyed reading my entry.  He was a nice man and stayed to chat for a while.  I told him my fears and he helped calm me with thoughts of Jesus taking care of me.  So, thank you Jesus, for everything so far, and yet to come.

And thank you to all my friends and family, without all of you I wouldn’t be the person I am today, and I appreciate all the help that has been offered and given.  Love to you all.