Lately I have been having very vivid dreams, that I can recall and remember for days. They are all about my ex husband. I have two. The first was a good one, just didn’t know it at the time. The second was a bad one, just didn’t know it at the time.
Most of the dreams are about my first husband. Some are longing dreams of seeing him again and falling back in love. Sigh :). Some are frustrating dreams of seeing him again and he rejects me. Again. Sigh :(.
Last night I dreamt of ex #1, and it was quite different. He was always very smart and ambitious, but in this dream it was really taking it to the extreme. Somebody invited me to a party to watch some sports, and I quickly realized it was HIS home. I wandered around thousands of square feet looking for him, and finally spotted him in the theatre room watching TV with his latest girlfriend or wife, not sure which. He saw me, and quickly led me out of the room, into an area of the home that was being added as an addition. Two guys were with him. When I asked if I could speak to him alone, he said the two guys NEVER left his side. Hmmm. He seemed on edge, always checking behind him and around corners, checking switches on this or that.
All of a sudden there were noises of small explosions/gunshots. He quickly whipped a gun out and ran up the stairs with his bodyguards. I didn’t know what to do, and was totally shocked and appalled at what was going on. My ex was a drug lord? Gunslinger? Gun runner? Seller of state secrets?
I wandered around carefully, looking for someone or something to explain it all to me. However, as with all dreams it seems, I came to no conclusion. I awoke with no resolution, and don’t even know what happened to him.
I’m not sure why, but I have been dreaming about him, and occasionally the other one (ick) on a regular basis. Maybe because of my surgeries and thoughts of being mortal, and I’m trying to resolve issues in my mind. I think with all divorces there are unresolved issues, and I think it should be made mandatory by a judge to make the two parties sit down and talk everything out before a judgment is passed. So many people are left in the dark or keep things hidden, or hurt the other person by their silence. And then they spent the rest of their lives trying to work it out in their dreams.
Ah well. This too shall pass.