Day 10. Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
I really don’t think there is any one person I can choose. I think that every person in your life is there or was there for a reason. Maybe to make your life happier, maybe to make your life, shall we say, challenging. Maybe to teach you a hard lesson.
I am happy with all the people in my life currently. I have some wonderful friends, for which I am very grateful. I don’t really see people from my past anymore who harmed me mentally or physically. Or both, for that matter.
I am definitely NOT everyone’s favorite person. But really, can you be that? I don’t think so. I am trying really hard to be a better person, but that doesn’t necessarily make you the most popular person in the room. If I don’t show up somewhere, people might be relieved, lol. As my family is quick to tell me, you can pick your friends, but you can’t pick your family!
So, I think because I am divorced, I guess that was the person I needed to let go, even though it didn’t seem like it at the time. Or for a very long time after. But with a little distance, I can see that it was a very destructive relationship from the start. Sometimes love can NOT conquer all. Do I wish I didn’t know him? I did, for awhile. In fact I wished he was dead. Yep. Dead. But then I realized that I must forgive and forget. And now, I could care less whether he is alive or dead, or what he does with his life. I am not the one he will face on Judgment Day. And trust me, I have my own transgressions I must face then myself.
I let it go. I am one with the wind and sky.